"The sweetest thing in all my life has been the longing —
to reach the Mountain, to find the place where all the beauty came from —
my country, the place where I ought to have been born. Do you think it all meant nothing,
all the longing? The longing for home? For indeed it now feels not like going, but like going back."

~C.S. Lewis

Saturday, December 24, 2011

The Christmas companion

Tomorrow is Christmas, the celebration of the day when the kingdom of God became more visible, more real, and more glorious than any time in history. The day when Jesus said, this is My kingdom, this is My land, every moment, every breath of life from newborn to death, it is all part of the kingdom. The kingdom-savior, the kingdom-leader, the kingdom-kingthe Messiahhad finally come.

Christ became part of his kingdom; no longer just over it; He was in it, living, breathing, feeling, loving, just as I do with every glance, move, and decision I make. Yet so often, I act like He does not quite understand, like somehow, He could not quite breathe lifeliving as I was meant to liveinto my very presence of all I do, of grooming horses and washing dishes and shoveling snow and wrapping presentsas if, somehow, He could not possibly transform my every moment into utter glory.

And then, I miss the meaning of Christmas.


"God came to us because he wanted to join us on the road, to listen to our story, and to help us realize that we are not walking in circles but moving towards the house of peace and joy. This is the great mystery of Christmas that continues to give us comfort and consolation: we are not alone on our journey. The God of love who gave us life sent his only Son to be with us at all times and in all places, so that we never have to feel lost in our struggles but always can trust that he walks with us.

"The challenge is to let God be who he wants to be. A part of us clings to our aloneness and does not allow God to touch us where we are most in pain. Often we hide from him precisely those places in ourselves where we feel guilty, ashamed, confused, and lost. Thus we do not give him a chance to be with us where we feel most alone.

"Christmas is the renewed invitation not to be afraid and to let himwhose love is greater than our own hearts and minds can comprehendbe our companion."

~Henri Nouwen, Gracias